Day 7
“My fear was that if I have one day…I might as well f*ckin’ have what I really want and then start over… And my fear of that is I know if I do that it may take me three years to get that back.” - Dax Shepard
Sobriety. From sixteen years to seven days. This is a dose of humility for Dax Shephard, who shares his recent and confusing experience with opiates. It’s commendable and vulnerable.
Sometimes this being human thing is pretty damn hard. Sometimes we’ve just got to lift up the messy parts so we can all learn, heal (where/if needed) and grow. Cancel culture is for robots.
“I never thought, ‘I’m not an addict,’ but I thought ‘I’m a smart enough addict to do this and come up with a bullet-proof game-plan.’” - Dax Shepard
(13:33) “I tell you guys everything, and I give you the remaining stuff I have. I say ‘please help me ‘cause I’m not doing this well,’ and now I don’t really know what to do. I apologized for all the gaslighting I’ve been doing, and now I have this whole AA situation, and more importantly, my ego in my ‘sixteen years, sixteen years, sixteen years,’ compounded by the fact that it’s in the news that I have sixteen years.”
(14:31) “My fear was that if I have one day, I’m gonna drink and I’m gonna do coke ‘cause I haven’t drunk a beer in sixteen years, and I haven’t snorted a line in sixteen years and if I have one day then I might as well f*ckin’ have what I really want and then start over. And my fear of that is I know if I do that, it may take me three years to get that back—in the cage, and I may die! I just know what I’m like on those two things, and so—and again it’s very hard for me to know what part of this is like my addiction, and what great stories I tell myself of reasons why I can’t just be f*cking humble and say ‘I’ve failed.’
(16:43) “I never thought, ‘I’m not an addict,’ but I thought ‘I’m a smart enough addict to do this and come up with a bullet-proof game-plan.”
(24:31) “Today, I have seven days.”
LISTEN TO THE FULL PODCAST, HERE. (47 min)
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